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ok. Rana’s story is confusing me bc i remember they talked about her dying but now there has been new spoilers with her running away and leaving Kate at the altar. so i dont know what to think, but with the last episode there were moments that i was like what? like the phone call with Zee & her response . (im actually one that’d rather have her die then breakup -tbh i’d rather have them both leave the show together bc Corrie sucks.. the storylines r crap.

I’m not entirely sure but I believe the last minute doubts spoilers are mostly to throw people off the scent and make them think she’s not the person who dies, since that’s supposed to be a big mystery for this event. 

I’ve not been following things too closely, though, and I’d love to be wrong. Well, not with her running away necessarily, but remaining alive. But you’d rather the opposite and prefer for her to die? I can’t agree with that, sorry. If she’d broken up with Kate, especially if it’d been over something understandable like the ridiculous forced baby drama, at least there was a hope for something more. At least we’d know that there was this Muslim lesbian character out there living her life, perhaps getting to enjoy the adventures she’d dreamed of, mending a broken heart or waiting for Kate or whatever. That hope would have meant so much. But it’s going to crumble into nothing now. No hope, no future.

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I think it was also bhavna who actually suggested her character to be killed off, not the showrunner

So I caught up on the recent Kana today and wanted to answer this.

I’m still so angry and torn between being happy at the good moments and remembering what’s going to happen and being bitter all over again. But very little of that has to do with Bhavna’s suggestion. There is a part of me that’s sad at that, yes, because it seems to speak to a lack of understanding of what this rep means to us and what a death does to it, but it’s been made incredibly clear how much trouble non-wlw have understanding that. And I get what her actual reasoning would have been, that this would seal what a once-in-a-lifetime soulmate kind of love Kana had, that only death could separate them. If circumstances had been different, she might even have been right, but the circumstances aren’t different and we have a very specific history linked to this.

Separately from her, though, my god, the show didn’t have to listen to her, they didn’t have to include Adam plot and then kill her off, what, the day of her wedding? Every terrible choice they could have made, they did. This is on them. My rate is definitely reserved for them.

And another anon:

Ouf man I can only imagine what you went through with Rana. Juliantina was super loving and even then watching them on tv was HARD sometimes. The kidnapping, the tears, Juls kissing that guy (my brain just. Refuse to remember his name) and all the homophobia when all they wanted be together and make each other laugh. I wish writers could understand how hard we latch on wlw stories to process our own experiences and how important they are to us.

Sorry for answering so late! Thank you for the kind thoughts, anon. It really did and does suck and the hardest part is realizing how little the writers care about the effect this will have. It’s easier to tolerate mistakes than detachment, at least for me. 

I think often writers do realize how important these stories are to us, but sometimes it’s too late or they just don’t care. Those that pay attention and try to do well by us are the ones I like the most, and I guess that’s why I ended up being as okay with Juliantina as I was. Too many writers will accept the praise but stop listening to the criticism and some will make mistakes so major, there’s no way back from them. At least here, it was a mostly recoverable situation and it was all done when they had no feedback. Hopefully they’ll get a chance to apply what they learned.

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i really do agree with angelique having a powerhouse fanbase of 8 million pushing aam to win along with the gays. none of the other actors had her numbers and active support from the international fans (like angelique herself said). great day for all of us

Yep! I’m still processing everything and all the different things that had to happen in exactly the right way for this experience to turn out like it did. The casting for Juliantina, obviously, but also, the rest of the cast and crew being who they were and so we had this really fancy, cool show to support and Angelique Boyer on our side. 

Her win was a no-brainer, she would have had her enormous fanbase voting for AND us. And since we concentrated on the rest of the nominees I don’t see why hers wouldn’t have too, so the results weren’t all that surprising at all. But if she’d been in a different show things might have been quite different. In fact, her presence in this one was a great buffer because as much as we like to think that Juliantina overshadowed everything, it was only allowed the space to do so because she was so good she continued to bring in the general audience. It wasn’t Juliantina being the one good thing in a bad show, they were one great part of a good show. The proof is in how many of us were ultimately invested in Lucia’s story, right. And it just made the whole experience so good and positive, being a part of something historical.

Honestly, it’s still so unbelievable it all happened. Even when the show was airing and we were realizing how well Juliantina were written and how well integrated, we knew it’d be a special experience. But now there’s this bond between the AAM cast and crew and this f/f fandom and none of us will ever forget this experience. Most of the rest of the cast has at this point thanked Juliantina fans, every time they look at that trophy they’ll remember us, and we’ll never forget this one time where we mattered, to the writers, to the crew, to the cast. We weren’t the tolerated niche but a beloved part of this mainstream show. It really isn’t an experience that we’ll see repeated again.

And another anon:

Quick question, if you don’t mind…why is Angelique ‘the queen of her generation’ and ‘of course she was gonna win’? I started aam for juliantina (obvs) but I fell in love with her too, because damn. So I’m curious about her…but my google skills are failing me (or maybe it’s just that I don’t know spanish)

I’m no expert but I think she’s just been a very hard-working actress who through some iconic roles has become a very famous, popular figure. She’s definitely gorgeous and talented but she also seems very gracious so I think she’s just very well-liked all around.

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LOL. I wonder what Barbara showed Maca in that upper right gif that resulted in her awed expression. ?

And a hug! Lol, your guess is as good as mine. I know what we would all like it to be though, heh. 

And another anon:

I love reading your answers to your anons. Always thoughtful and mature and when people make assumptions or negative comments (ex. Gonzo) you always look at both sides.

Aw, thank you! Heh, funny you say this after my kinda-meltdown yesterday but thank you. 

Looking at both sides…also considered fence straddling, but it just makes sense to me There’s always a reason for why people behave the way they do, right, it may not be a good reason, but it’s there. So whenever people come to me about something, usually about others in the fandom, it’s like, well, we’re all ultimately on the same side here so let’s just break it down a little. Nobody’s engaging in fandom to be miserable and make others miserable. So maybe it’s ultimately my forced positivity, I dunno.

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We made #1 on tumblr again with 0 new content all thanks to Barb and Maca. I’m honestly shocked still we were number one I thought surely it was because we got new content every day but I think that shows this fandom is actually huge. I want to try not to have expectations and just be thankful but it’s so hard not to have hope after hearing Maca and Barb say they both want to do a spiniff on the day we win their show 14 awards. Winning those awards reminded me what fandom is supposed to be.

I know! I looked it up yesterday and this is literally what I said to a friend

“Wow, STILL #1 in the fandometrics! I really thought we’d fall and was only wondering by how much. It was definitely last night, lol, that kept us there.”

Definitely didn’t think that even one night of award content would keep it up there, like you said, I thought it was the daily content but just goes to show how much interest there is. With respect to the spinoff, I’m the same, trying to keep expectations low, or even frame any outcome as win-win, no spinoff = then no chance of them being ruined, spinoff = more of them.

But I really do get how people just want to hold on to this experience and this feeling of being listened to and acknowledged and making a difference. In so many other fandoms, we are the niche and no matter how important we think we are, we’re always reminded of our place at the end. But here we’re indulged, both in the story and by the cast and crew. It’s such a different feeling and I think we all know that whatever new ship comes along, it won’t be like this.

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Are you watching the new season of For The People? Do you know if Caitlin Stasey is coming back? From what I gathered from the promos, imdb, etc. it doesn’t look like it :(

I am! I don’t know if she’ll be back but I don’t think you can trust IMDB right now, everyone’s ep counts seem off and the promos were so lacking in any kind of relationship drama, again, those aren’t signs. It wouldn’t surprise me if she appeared for a few scenes but I also wouldn’t be surprised if she was gone.