2015 Resolutions

booasaur:

  1. Start learning to draw (work my way through…10? Sycra vids)
  2. Start learning a language other than Urdu
  3. Improve Urdu reading
  4. Complete 5% of the games in Steam library
  5. Log 20 hours on the Oculus
  6. Raise the percentage of femslash related stuff on blog to 20%
  7. Start calling them Mamie and Grace Gummer instead of Meryl Streep’s Kid and Meryl Streep’s Other Kid
  8. Support 5 Kickstarters
  9. Get a desktop
  10. Make fic database
  11. Complete 30 photoset/manip ideas (or really, finally start Faberry Week entries for real)
  12. Watch 5 Kdramas
  13. Review more fics
  14. Volunteer for AO3
  15. Stop feeling bad for not enjoying The 100
  16. Write and put up one fic

Checking in after two months… Started going through Urdu vocab and learning the numbers after 20. Um. Supported one Kickstarter, started a game on Steam, watching a few kdramas, reviewed what little fic I’ve read (but not actually read much at all), .

Completely and utterly failed 15.

2015 Resolutions

booasaur:

  1. Start learning to draw (work my way through…10? Sycra vids)
  2. Start learning a language other than Urdu
  3. Improve Urdu reading
  4. Complete 5% of the games in Steam library
  5. Log 20 hours on the Oculus
  6. Raise the percentage of femslash related stuff on blog to 20%
  7. Start calling them Mamie and Grace Gummer instead of Meryl Streep’s Kid and Meryl Streep’s Other Kid
  8. Support 5 Kickstarters
  9. Get a desktop
  10. Make fic database
  11. Complete 30 photoset/manip ideas (or really, finally start Faberry Week entries for real)
  12. Watch 5 Kdramas
  13. Review more fics
  14. Volunteer for AO3
  15. Stop feeling bad for not enjoying The 100
  16. Write and put up one fic

Checking in after two months… Started going through Urdu vocab and learning the numbers after 20. Um. Supported one Kickstarter, started a game on Steam, watching a few kdramas, reviewed what little fic I’ve read (but not actually read much at all), .

Completely and utterly failed 15.

Like halfway through every February I get all resentful and go, no, Femslash Forever, and put off posting stuff until March.

Like halfway through every February I get all resentful and go, no, Femslash Forever, and put off posting stuff until March.

addictedtoangst replied to your post: Saving Hope – 3×17 – Maggie and Sydney

Syd’s storyline hit home for me too. I liked your comment about keeping halal vs queerness. It’s like that with me too – it’s funny what we give importance to when it comes to our cultural background. Also, I’m a huge fan of your gifs 🙂 – Ami

It does seem like we’ve got our priorities the wrong way around. 😛

I think it’s a matter of deciding your stance on things? Like, navigating life as even a semi-religious person, you’re faced with all kinds of choices, can I eat chewy candy, should I shake that dude’s hand, and once you’ve done it for the first time, you’ve justified it enough to kind of lock that in. “Okay, it’s just easier to shake hands than explain why not every time.” Maybe it’s not the right choice, but there it is.

So I’m still sticking to halal, and by this point it’s become a major thing, probably because it’s been so difficult at times. Queerness…yeah, I’ve decided to accept that there’s nothing wrong with it. I wouldn’t say I’m picking and choosing as to what’s more convenient to me personally, because believe me, I would muuuuch rather be eating cheeseburgers than…whatever, but that’s how it’s turned out. Like Syd, queerness is, well, all right (though I’m still worried deeeep down, I suppose), but breaking food laws? I don’t even know you!

And thanks! 🙂

addictedtoangst replied to your post: Saving Hope – 3×17 – Maggie and Sydney

Syd’s storyline hit home for me too. I liked your comment about keeping halal vs queerness. It’s like that with me too – it’s funny what we give importance to when it comes to our cultural background. Also, I’m a huge fan of your gifs 🙂 – Ami

It does seem like we’ve got our priorities the wrong way around. 😛

I think it’s a matter of deciding your stance on things? Like, navigating life as even a semi-religious person, you’re faced with all kinds of choices, can I eat chewy candy, should I shake that dude’s hand, and once you’ve done it for the first time, you’ve justified it enough to kind of lock that in. “Okay, it’s just easier to shake hands than explain why not every time.” Maybe it’s not the right choice, but there it is.

So I’m still sticking to halal, and by this point it’s become a major thing, probably because it’s been so difficult at times. Queerness…yeah, I’ve decided to accept that there’s nothing wrong with it. I wouldn’t say I’m picking and choosing as to what’s more convenient to me personally, because believe me, I would muuuuch rather be eating cheeseburgers than…whatever, but that’s how it’s turned out. Like Syd, queerness is, well, all right (though I’m still worried deeeep down, I suppose), but breaking food laws? I don’t even know you!

And thanks! 🙂

Happy New Year! I was wondering whether you consider yourself to be religious at all. I’ve been struggling lately with being queer and Muslim and could use any advice you may have.

Happy New Year to you too! 🙂

Hmm, I do, I do consider myself religious. I mean, I can give you the credentials, hijab, keeping halal, etc, but, I do.

Let’s see. Growing up Muslim in a Muslim country, there wasn’t much call to think about dating and romance at all, but even less thought given to homosexuality. Of course, I didn’t realize how much heteronormativity I’d absorbed just by reading the American stories and watching the American movies and TV that I did. I don’t think I knew what gay was for a surprisingly long time, and when I did, I absorbed it from Western media. No one around me ever mentioned it though, and my reaction to things like Xena was more an awkward Westernized homophobia than any kind of Islamic hate. I just laughed, called it gay, and didn’t feel it resonate at all. I was a bit of a late bloomer apparently.

The first time I came across a main lesbian character, unintentionally, I…I don’t know, at the time, I felt a little disgusted? After a few years, I’d changed that stance around completely, being in college and just generally learning to be more empathetic, but still with no personal investment, until the same thing happened, different book, but this time I was very interested in the romance. I didn’t think of myself as a bad Muslim for enjoying it, but at the time I didn’t even remotely think that could be me. It took years to slowly accept that maaaybe I wasn’t straight, maybe I was enjoying and pursuing queer media for reasons other than just entertainment. I don’t know that I’ve fully accepted it now, my bio still reads questioning. There are cultural issues at play too, right, I can’t ever come out to my family, there’s marriage pressure, etc.

But never once was my confusion ever about Islam. I’ve always thought of being Muslim as being a good person. And, good lord, that doesn’t mean I haven’t learned a lot of terrible things, e.g., that disgust up there, and all kinds of racism and other -isms that I had to unlearn, but I associate Islam with being kind and noble and honorable, and I just cannot see how being queer could ever contradict that? Like, alcohol, gambling, whether or not you can agree with them being banned, you can see why there are warnings against them. But just…loving someone? Nah. Even if I had no personal stake, I’d still have exactly the same opinion.

You can come off anon if you want to talk more privately?

Happy New Year! I was wondering whether you consider yourself to be religious at all. I’ve been struggling lately with being queer and Muslim and could use any advice you may have.

Happy New Year to you too! 🙂

Hmm, I do, I do consider myself religious. I mean, I can give you the credentials, hijab, keeping halal, etc, but, I do.

Let’s see. Growing up Muslim in a Muslim country, there wasn’t much call to think about dating and romance at all, but even less thought given to homosexuality. Of course, I didn’t realize how much heteronormativity I’d absorbed just by reading the American stories and watching the American movies and TV that I did. I don’t think I knew what gay was for a surprisingly long time, and when I did, I absorbed it from Western media. No one around me ever mentioned it though, and my reaction to things like Xena was more an awkward Westernized homophobia than any kind of Islamic hate. I just laughed, called it gay, and didn’t feel it resonate at all. I was a bit of a late bloomer apparently.

The first time I came across a main lesbian character, unintentionally, I…I don’t know, at the time, I felt a little disgusted? After a few years, I’d changed that stance around completely, being in college and just generally learning to be more empathetic, but still with no personal investment, until the same thing happened, different book, but this time I was very interested in the romance. I didn’t think of myself as a bad Muslim for enjoying it, but at the time I didn’t even remotely think that could be me. It took years to slowly accept that maaaybe I wasn’t straight, maybe I was enjoying and pursuing queer media for reasons other than just entertainment. I don’t know that I’ve fully accepted it now, my bio still reads questioning. There are cultural issues at play too, right, I can’t ever come out to my family, there’s marriage pressure, etc.

But never once was my confusion ever about Islam. I’ve always thought of being Muslim as being a good person. And, good lord, that doesn’t mean I haven’t learned a lot of terrible things, e.g., that disgust up there, and all kinds of racism and other -isms that I had to unlearn, but I associate Islam with being kind and noble and honorable, and I just cannot see how being queer could ever contradict that? Like, alcohol, gambling, whether or not you can agree with them being banned, you can see why there are warnings against them. But just…loving someone? Nah. Even if I had no personal stake, I’d still have exactly the same opinion.

You can come off anon if you want to talk more privately?